How’s it going everyone and Merry Christmas!
I really don’t post here much, but I feel like venting a little bit. This is about growing older.
It’s really crazy to think about how the years have passed in the glimpse of an eye. I still remember stepping into my first class and seeing all of the other 4 year old children and nowadays I step into a class and all of the children have all grown up and they are pursuing the dreams they used to have as little kids. We’re getting old people, it’s only a matter of time til some of us are married with children.
There are a couple of things that inspired me to actually fill up my Tumblr with something. First thing is that when I was returning back to my home town to visit my parents I started to notice little differences about Mom and Dad. Mom’s knee is starting to go bad and once in a while she’ll start to limp. My dad has had 20/20 vision for all of these years, and now he’s struggling to read his newspaper. This opened my eyes a little bit, their health is getting worse. A lot of things blew into my mind like medical expenses, income, jobs, my future in general. One day it’s going to be me they are depending on. Vice versa Mom and Dad, you’ll be living in my own home one day.
Secondly, a miracle happened this Christmas for myself. For all of you who don’t know, my real father left me when I was born and I’ve never met him. 20 years of living I have not been acknowledged by my Dad. 8 months ago I found him on Facebook and sent him a message. It was a long message for it was a memoir of my life thus far. I felt crazy sending a letter to a stranger about my life, but seeing him having an active facebook made me a little excited to know I have a chance to get in touch with him. Well, he finally replied to the message a few days ago.. He says that he hopes I’m doing well and hello. It was his wife that messaged me back, but she basically said that my dad says hello and that he has bad english and if I have any questions whatsoever I am free to ask her. She will speak on the behalf of Dad who does not know English. They gave me their contact info and I will contact them some time in the future. Best Christmas I can ever ask for.
Seeing that this message is consumed with a Lovie Dovie atmosphere, I’d like to acknowledge my friends. Friends, it’s been good knowing all of you. Each and every one of you have contributed to my character in some way, and you have made an impact on my life. I casted myself out to see what life was like without you for a bit. It was a really interesting experience, I really got to know myself and I now somewhat know who I am and what I want to do with life. You’re wonderful presence have always distracted me so it was hard to focus on myself and what I wanted. That’s just me though. I’m really blessed to have all of you in my life though, you guys supported me in every single way whether it was good or bad. I only wish the best for you guys and that we may always be friends. Well, scratch that last part. I know for sure we’ll always be friends.
Well guys, I’m gonna cut this off its pretty long. I’ll leave you with this though. We’re getting older, time is tickin. Take some time to appreciate what you have with yourself, your friends, and your family because life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you gonna get. ~Fuckin Gump. <3 Merry Christmas.
So, what a shitty and awesome day. Let’s start with the bad. The bad thing about the day is, I realize how much of a shitty person the person I cared most about really is. Not gonna really get into detail because I still want to keep a lot of these things to myself, however I will share this. If you love someone, you should be able to forgive and forget. No matter how much I went through to forgive and forget for the one I cared about, in the end that person didn’t give it to me when I needed it the most. Fuccckkkk ittt. The pain hurts but all I’m gonna say is FUCK it! damn. I love screaming that outloud, especially when I was in the gym with solomon and anthony.
Now, for the good part. Well, I tried out for PCN acting, and I think I really did well. The directors and even a couple of the people who are in the caste already, really celebrated after my preformance. I think they really liked my acting, and I too liked it. I feel very accomplished. Even with things breaking down, I’m glad there’s something new to finally look forward to.